It all began with a feeling deep inside of me. That somehow I wanted the world to stop, to slow down so that I could catch up with it all. The mails, the news and most of all my feelings and the connections with other people. Little did I know that the slowing down that I demanded outside of me was actually a longing to slow down inside of me. I needed slowness to feel it all. I was overwhelmed so many times and pushed through that feeling. Later I learned I was in functional freeze. From the outside everything looked fine but from the inside it felt like a hurricane pulling me from one side of the emotional spectrum to the other. It took time, discipline to things that didn’t work, more pushing and pulling, workshops and guides that gave me little bits and pieces but no fulfilling long term results until I finally found a 12 step program called ACA, an intimacy coach, the nervous system and slowing down so deliciously that I softly and gently started to find more and more home within myself. In my own pace!